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    Default My own battle with depression and suicidal thoughts.

    In light of Robin Williams death, I thought that I'd like to share my own story. I've seen a lot of differing reactions out there, and one thing is clear to me. Some people still don't get it. Clinical depression, being suicidal, isn't something we can just get over. It's not about just being sad. It doesn't matter what, or who, we are surrounded by. Money can't cure it. Fame and respect don't soothe it. A box full of kittens won't ease it. Being that depressed is being fundamentally broken on the inside.

    My own story starts as a teenager. I was an angry child. I had rage issue. I hated myself, even though I never really could pin down why. Back then, it was just brushed aside as common teenage angst. Something I'd grow out of someday. And I did. Or, I thought I did. Adulthood brought me some good friends, good jobs, and eventually a wife and child. I was happy. The demons, however, never really went away. Even in my happiness, I found myself wondering if everyone would be better without me in their lives. They don't really like you, I thought. They just pretend to laugh at your jokes. If you weren't related to them, your family wouldn't choose you. For the most part, I was able to fight those thoughts off. I didn't really take them all that seriously. And anyway, I was too busy drinking those voices into oblivion to pay them any mind.

    Yeah, I drank. A lot. I had to do something to deal with my increasing feelings of self loathing. As you might expect, it didn't help. It only made things worse. To make a long story, well, slightly less long, I wound not drinking away my emotions, but my family instead. I lost almost everything. The wife and daughter I thought I'd never have moved away. So I withdrew from the world, drinking and licking my wounds. That's when the demons really kicked into high gear. All that old self hatred came back in a big way. "See," they told me, "we were right. You are worthless. You screwed it all up, just like we said you would." So I drank more to shut them up.

    Finally, I wound up on a couch at my mother's apartment. There, roughly two years ago, I gave up. I won't call what I did an actual suicide attempt, but I knew that I could die from my actions, and I didn't care. I drank all the beer I could afford to drink, then added a handful of pills into the mix. Then another. Vicodin, Zanax, whatever I could find. I never said to myself, I'm going to die today, but I sure as hell didn't care if I did.

    I came to two days later. I wish I could say my experience was uneventful, but it was not. I lashed out. I said things I can never take back. I nearly drove away my entire family. But I lived. Everything I did, all the things I said, that damage is repairable because I lived. Had I not, the last memory loved ones would have had of me would be that of a hateful, drunken fool, doing his best to hurt them. Thankfully, that's not the case. Call it the grace of god, call it dumb luck, call it what you will, but I'm still here.

    Since that day, life has improved a great deal. I went on to find another good job. I've made some good friends. Hell, I even managed to fall in love again, even if it didn't last. I've carved out a nice life for myself. Here's the thing, though. I'm not cured. My depression didn't magically go away. In moments of weakness, I can still feel like I don't deserve any of it. I still feel guilty for the things I've done, and that I'm the only one that can properly punish myself for them. But now I know I'm strong enough to fight those thoughts.

    This is how I look at it. I'm on a winning streak. I've beaten suicide for thirty five years now. I beat it this morning when I rose from bed. I beat it just now when I took that breath. I have to stay on guard, though. I'm the one that has to keep winning, because suicide only has to win the once. So I take the small victories and run with them.

    My point in all this, if I have one, is to let folks know that they aren't alone. There are others out there who are going through what you are going through. I don't know the exact nature of your pain. I probably never will. But I know what it can do to you if you let it. And I'm telling you today, you don't have to let it. Reach out to someone. Call the suicide hotline. Look online for like minded people that can help. Just don't go through this thing you have alone, because alone, the odds aren't in your favor. Know that you are strong. Know that you are loved. Know that you deserve the good things you have in your life. And if you feel like you don't have anything good yet, know that those things are coming. As a teenager, I thought I'd never be truly happy. I had to wait a while, but I did find that happiness. And let me tell you, it was worth the wait. So please, don't go through this alone. You are stronger than you realize. After all all, you've been beating suicide your entire life.
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    Quote Originally Posted by Sponge Bob View Post
    I feel like the most childish person on this thread. I'm practically 50; have a small family of my own; and have held onto the same employer for 20 years--and still have the same hatred for a parent that I had as an adolescent.

    If you guys were sick of listening to me, I wouldn't blame you. I can't stand listening to me sometimes.

    I can't stand the woman my dad married. I'm a firm believer in divorce for some marriages. He's way too good for her, anyway.

    I called to see how they had fared in Irma & wanted to ask him about something in particular. She hovers over the phone like a huge vampire bat just dying for a call & hogs all the conversation.

    Even though I asked for dad & stated the specific question once he got one, she sticks her nose in & doesn't stop running her mouth. I'm tired of her constantly running her mouth even when I asked him the question because it's something about which he's more knowledgeable. I wish she'd just disappear
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    Quote Originally Posted by Sponge Bob View Post
    I feel like the most childish person on this thread. I'm practically 50; have a small family of my own; and have held onto the same employer for 20 years--and still have the same hatred for a parent that I had as an adolescent.

    If you guys were sick of listening to me, I wouldn't blame you. I can't stand listening to me sometimes.

    I can't stand the woman my dad married. I'm a firm believer in divorce for some marriages. He's way too good for her, anyway.

    I called to see how they had fared in Irma & wanted to ask him about something in particular. She hovers over the phone like a huge vampire bat just dying for a call & hogs all the conversation.

    Even though I asked for dad & stated the specific question once he got one, she sticks her nose in & doesn't stop running her mouth. I'm tired of her constantly running her mouth even when I asked him the question because it's something about which he's more knowledgeable. I wish she'd just disappear

    I don't blame you. You're not childish at all alnd I really enjoy reading your posts. If you need to vent here and people have a problem with it, it's their problem.

    I feel ya with mother problems- ask her to put your dad on the phone, and don't talk to her unless she does. Hang up and call back later, if you have to. Does your dad have a cell phone? Maybe you could contact him on that number.

    I don't think it's unreasonable to want to get away from a toxic person. I would like to move out, go to university and get away from my mother, but having social anxiety and with my leg condition (and upcoming surgery) I don't think that will happen. Keep your head held high and keep your ground.
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    Quote Originally Posted by reflechissez View Post
    He picked her.
    Typical dipstick reply! Blood always is thicker than water.
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    Quote Originally Posted by The Duck View Post
    Typical dipstick reply! Blood always is thicker than water.
    So much for the transformation.
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    Okay I'm going to try to ask as maturely as I possibly can but...does anyone else deal with nightmares? Not like usual ones, but more intense ones? I feel like a little kid who's still scared of the imaginary monsters under her bed, but I am a little concerned. These past several nights I've gotten little to no sleep because I keep waking up with panic symptoms from bad dreams (i.e sweats, out of breath/heavy breath, heart palpitations to name a few) and it's strange, because it's the same subject matter but an aspect of it warps, which makes changing how it plays out during the waking hours a bit more difficult.

    I'm not sure if sharing what it's about would help very much, but here it goes: I'm in a dungeon and there's these two snakes. One that is black with a white spot on its head, and the other white with a black spot on its head. All four of my limbs are chained in shackles and I'm in an "X" position facing them. The snakes are in cages, but they are hissing and biting at me. I'm asked to solve a puzzle if I want to get out, which is different every time. If I don't solve it to their satisfaction (the snakes. They talk as well), they threaten to torture me. Sometimes I'll get the puzzle wrong, and the snakes will turn into my parents and they in turn send snakes after me, and somehow I'm able to unchain myself and run from them, but I always wake up before they catch me. Sometimes the snakes will breathe fire at me, but I'm unable to escape and just before the fire touches me (I can almost feel it by touch, which is weird) I wake up.

    Sometimes it's a puzzle like one would see on a kids' menu (i.e. an easy word search or something) and I would get out just fine and simply wake up with no panic symptoms. Sometimes I turn into an angel and escape through the roof like a ghost. (I don't know if that means I died...?)

    I've talked to my therapist about it; she says they are post-traumatic nightmares (Yes, I know about the tirade I went on last year about that) but although I've thought or talked or written every possible traumatic event that's happened to me through, ad nauseam, I still get these. So I'm questioning whether or not these nightmares may be related to my past, or if it's just worry manifesting itself when I'm sleeping. And usually, PTSD nightmares are simply replays of the event, and mine have extra features. The only thing similar to what might have been traumatic to me are that the snakes represent my parents (which must mean some unresolved feelings towards them) and the imminent sense of fear/dread. I'm not sure that these are necessarily "post-traumatic."

    (Other than that life is going pretty good right now. I feel like I make a big deal over nothing sometimes, when compared to others, but be as it may).
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    Quote Originally Posted by Nik Notorious View Post
    Maybe. I don't do well with holidays either. Who knows what's going on in my head anymore. Just yesterday the oddest thing happened. I reached for my soda, but when I had it in my hand I just sort of froze. The regular voice in my head asked why aren't we moving this thing into my mouth, and my arm stayed still. The voice got impatient, then mad, then started screaming to bring my my soda, nothing. Then it sort of ran out of steam and stopped talking. Only then did I finally get my drink.

    I don't know. Sounds crazy when I type it out.
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    Quote Originally Posted by FlameHeart View Post
    Okay I'm going to try to ask as maturely as I possibly can but...does anyone else deal with nightmares? Not like usual ones, but more intense ones? I feel like a little kid who's still scared of the imaginary monsters under her bed, but I am a little concerned. These past several nights I've gotten little to no sleep because I keep waking up with panic symptoms from bad dreams (i.e sweats, out of breath/heavy breath, heart palpitations to name a few) and it's strange, because it's the same subject matter but an aspect of it warps, which makes changing how it plays out during the waking hours a bit more difficult.

    I'm not sure if sharing what it's about would help very much, but here it goes: I'm in a dungeon and there's these two snakes. One that is black with a white spot on its head, and the other white with a black spot on its head. All four of my limbs are chained in shackles and I'm in an "X" position facing them. The snakes are in cages, but they are hissing and biting at me. I'm asked to solve a puzzle if I want to get out, which is different every time. If I don't solve it to their satisfaction (the snakes. They talk as well), they threaten to torture me. Sometimes I'll get the puzzle wrong, and the snakes will turn into my parents and they in turn send snakes after me, and somehow I'm able to unchain myself and run from them, but I always wake up before they catch me. Sometimes the snakes will breathe fire at me, but I'm unable to escape and just before the fire touches me (I can almost feel it by touch, which is weird) I wake up.

    Sometimes it's a puzzle like one would see on a kids' menu (i.e. an easy word search or something) and I would get out just fine and simply wake up with no panic symptoms. Sometimes I turn into an angel and escape through the roof like a ghost. (I don't know if that means I died...?)

    I've talked to my therapist about it; she says they are post-traumatic nightmares (Yes, I know about the tirade I went on last year about that) but although I've thought or talked or written every possible traumatic event that's happened to me through, ad nauseam, I still get these. So I'm questioning whether or not these nightmares may be related to my past, or if it's just worry manifesting itself when I'm sleeping. And usually, PTSD nightmares are simply replays of the event, and mine have extra features. The only thing similar to what might have been traumatic to me are that the snakes represent my parents (which must mean some unresolved feelings towards them) and the imminent sense of fear/dread. I'm not sure that these are necessarily "post-traumatic."

    (Other than that life is going pretty good right now. I feel like I make a big deal over nothing sometimes, when compared to others, but be as it may).
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    Quote Originally Posted by FlameHeart View Post
    Okay I'm going to try to ask as maturely as I possibly can but...does anyone else deal with nightmares? Not like usual ones, but more intense ones? I feel like a little kid who's still scared of the imaginary monsters under her bed, but I am a little concerned. These past several nights I've gotten little to no sleep because I keep waking up with panic symptoms from bad dreams (i.e sweats, out of breath/heavy breath, heart palpitations to name a few) and it's strange, because it's the same subject matter but an aspect of it warps, which makes changing how it plays out during the waking hours a bit more difficult.

    I'm not sure if sharing what it's about would help very much, but here it goes: I'm in a dungeon and there's these two snakes. One that is black with a white spot on its head, and the other white with a black spot on its head. All four of my limbs are chained in shackles and I'm in an "X" position facing them. The snakes are in cages, but they are hissing and biting at me. I'm asked to solve a puzzle if I want to get out, which is different every time. If I don't solve it to their satisfaction (the snakes. They talk as well), they threaten to torture me. Sometimes I'll get the puzzle wrong, and the snakes will turn into my parents and they in turn send snakes after me, and somehow I'm able to unchain myself and run from them, but I always wake up before they catch me. Sometimes the snakes will breathe fire at me, but I'm unable to escape and just before the fire touches me (I can almost feel it by touch, which is weird) I wake up.

    Sometimes it's a puzzle like one would see on a kids' menu (i.e. an easy word search or something) and I would get out just fine and simply wake up with no panic symptoms. Sometimes I turn into an angel and escape through the roof like a ghost. (I don't know if that means I died...?)

    I've talked to my therapist about it; she says they are post-traumatic nightmares (Yes, I know about the tirade I went on last year about that) but although I've thought or talked or written every possible traumatic event that's happened to me through, ad nauseam, I still get these. So I'm questioning whether or not these nightmares may be related to my past, or if it's just worry manifesting itself when I'm sleeping. And usually, PTSD nightmares are simply replays of the event, and mine have extra features. The only thing similar to what might have been traumatic to me are that the snakes represent my parents (which must mean some unresolved feelings towards them) and the imminent sense of fear/dread. I'm not sure that these are necessarily "post-traumatic."

    (Other than that life is going pretty good right now. I feel like I make a big deal over nothing sometimes, when compared to others, but be as it may).
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    Quote Originally Posted by The Duck View Post
    FH, do you have "sleep apnea"?
    Not that I'm aware of. I do have insomnia, and I take an off-label medication for that.

    I don't snore, so I don't think it's regarding sinuses. I'm starting to wonder if it's even psychologically related at all, but maybe medically-related. I do sleep on my stomach sometimes, so maybe it's because of my position (crushing lungs and diaphragm) that's making it harder to breathe or giving me shortness of breathe? Or serotonin and dopamine levels could not be balanced, causing a mood shift, and thus making me more vulnerable to panic attacks during the night, and that may be the cause of a memory where I felt similar (in other words, the condition triggered a memory, not the other way around). Maybe I should start drinking milk before bed, to help serotonin levels.

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    Quote Originally Posted by FlameHeart View Post
    Not that I'm aware of. I do have insomnia, and I take an off-label medication for that.

    I don't snore, so I don't think it's regarding sinuses. I'm starting to wonder if it's even psychologically related at all, but maybe medically-related. I do sleep on my stomach sometimes, so maybe it's because of my position (crushing lungs and diaphragm) that's making it harder to breathe or giving me shortness of breathe? Or serotonin and dopamine levels could not be balanced, causing a mood shift, and thus making me more vulnerable to panic attacks during the night, and that may be the cause of a memory where I felt similar (in other words, the condition triggered a memory, not the other way around). Maybe I should start drinking milk before bed, to help serotonin levels.

    I'm just brainstorming.
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    Quote Originally Posted by FlameHeart View Post
    Okay I'm going to try to ask as maturely as I possibly can but...does anyone else deal with nightmares? Not like usual ones, but more intense ones? I feel like a little kid who's still scared of the imaginary monsters under her bed, but I am a little concerned. These past several nights I've gotten little to no sleep because I keep waking up with panic symptoms from bad dreams (i.e sweats, out of breath/heavy breath, heart palpitations to name a few) and it's strange, because it's the same subject matter but an aspect of it warps, which makes changing how it plays out during the waking hours a bit more difficult.

    I'm not sure if sharing what it's about would help very much, but here it goes: I'm in a dungeon and there's these two snakes. One that is black with a white spot on its head, and the other white with a black spot on its head. All four of my limbs are chained in shackles and I'm in an "X" position facing them. The snakes are in cages, but they are hissing and biting at me. I'm asked to solve a puzzle if I want to get out, which is different every time. If I don't solve it to their satisfaction (the snakes. They talk as well), they threaten to torture me. Sometimes I'll get the puzzle wrong, and the snakes will turn into my parents and they in turn send snakes after me, and somehow I'm able to unchain myself and run from them, but I always wake up before they catch me. Sometimes the snakes will breathe fire at me, but I'm unable to escape and just before the fire touches me (I can almost feel it by touch, which is weird) I wake up.

    Sometimes it's a puzzle like one would see on a kids' menu (i.e. an easy word search or something) and I would get out just fine and simply wake up with no panic symptoms. Sometimes I turn into an angel and escape through the roof like a ghost. (I don't know if that means I died...?)

    I've talked to my therapist about it; she says they are post-traumatic nightmares (Yes, I know about the tirade I went on last year about that) but although I've thought or talked or written every possible traumatic event that's happened to me through, ad nauseam, I still get these. So I'm questioning whether or not these nightmares may be related to my past, or if it's just worry manifesting itself when I'm sleeping. And usually, PTSD nightmares are simply replays of the event, and mine have extra features. The only thing similar to what might have been traumatic to me are that the snakes represent my parents (which must mean some unresolved feelings towards them) and the imminent sense of fear/dread. I'm not sure that these are necessarily "post-traumatic."

    (Other than that life is going pretty good right now. I feel like I make a big deal over nothing sometimes, when compared to others, but be as it may).
    It's always good to talk things out, no matter what it might be. Here's my "anonymous internet" translation of your nightmare. I think it might be a way to express your feelings of being out of control of your life. You have a lot of things going on that would make you feel that way. Try and think of some things that you DO have some control over, even if it's just little things.



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    September is suicide prevention month.
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    Quote Originally Posted by FlameHeart View Post
    Okay I'm going to try to ask as maturely as I possibly can but...does anyone else deal with nightmares? Not like usual ones, but more intense ones? I feel like a little kid who's still scared of the imaginary monsters under her bed, but I am a little concerned. These past several nights I've gotten little to no sleep because I keep waking up with panic symptoms from bad dreams (i.e sweats, out of breath/heavy breath, heart palpitations to name a few) and it's strange, because it's the same subject matter but an aspect of it warps, which makes changing how it plays out during the waking hours a bit more difficult.

    I'm not sure if sharing what it's about would help very much, but here it goes: I'm in a dungeon and there's these two snakes. One that is black with a white spot on its head, and the other white with a black spot on its head. All four of my limbs are chained in shackles and I'm in an "X" position facing them. The snakes are in cages, but they are hissing and biting at me. I'm asked to solve a puzzle if I want to get out, which is different every time. If I don't solve it to their satisfaction (the snakes. They talk as well), they threaten to torture me. Sometimes I'll get the puzzle wrong, and the snakes will turn into my parents and they in turn send snakes after me, and somehow I'm able to unchain myself and run from them, but I always wake up before they catch me. Sometimes the snakes will breathe fire at me, but I'm unable to escape and just before the fire touches me (I can almost feel it by touch, which is weird) I wake up.

    Sometimes it's a puzzle like one would see on a kids' menu (i.e. an easy word search or something) and I would get out just fine and simply wake up with no panic symptoms. Sometimes I turn into an angel and escape through the roof like a ghost. (I don't know if that means I died...?)

    I've talked to my therapist about it; she says they are post-traumatic nightmares (Yes, I know about the tirade I went on last year about that) but although I've thought or talked or written every possible traumatic event that's happened to me through, ad nauseam, I still get these. So I'm questioning whether or not these nightmares may be related to my past, or if it's just worry manifesting itself when I'm sleeping. And usually, PTSD nightmares are simply replays of the event, and mine have extra features. The only thing similar to what might have been traumatic to me are that the snakes represent my parents (which must mean some unresolved feelings towards them) and the imminent sense of fear/dread. I'm not sure that these are necessarily "post-traumatic."

    (Other than that life is going pretty good right now. I feel like I make a big deal over nothing sometimes, when compared to others, but be as it may).
    Something else I wanted to say, and you've probably heard of this before, but try it a few times, it might work! Before you go to sleep, take some time to meditate on that nightmare, with the intent to rewrite it with an ending that you like and prefer. Like "programing" your brain to take control of the nightmare and have it go the way you want it to go.

    Some suggestions: Maybe you could have a magic key that unlocks the shackles at your command. Then you could point your finger at the snakes and command them to fall asleep. Tell the person that insists you solve a puzzle to BACK OFF, and that you don't take orders from anyone! Then laugh at all of them as you walk away with your head held high.

    I've done this myself and it really works. Surprisingly, I rarely have nightmares anymore, but I used to get them all the time. I used to have one where a tornado was within minutes of hitting my house, and we were all going to be killed. It was awful, and I'd wake up in a cold sweat with my heart beating like crazy. I "trained" my brain to have the tornado vanish back into the sky at my command.



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    Quote Originally Posted by HeyJude View Post
    Something else I wanted to say, and you've probably heard of this before, but try it a few times, it might work! Before you go to sleep, take some time to meditate on that nightmare, with the intent to rewrite it with an ending that you like and prefer. Like "programing" your brain to take control of the nightmare and have it go the way you want it to go.

    Some suggestions: Maybe you could have a magic key that unlocks the shackles at your command. Then you could point your finger at the snakes and command them to fall asleep. Tell the person that insists you solve a puzzle to BACK OFF, and that you don't take orders from anyone! Then laugh at all of them as you walk away with your head held high.

    I've done this myself and it really works. Surprisingly, I rarely have nightmares anymore, but I used to get them all the time. I used to have one where a tornado was within minutes of hitting my house, and we were all going to be killed. It was awful, and I'd wake up in a cold sweat with my heart beating like crazy. I "trained" my brain to have the tornado vanish back into the sky at my command.
    Thanks HJ. Will try that.
    "Ignis aurum probat"

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    Quote Originally Posted by Nik Notorious View Post
    Well, it's no use and I've all but given up. Started having some symptoms of another impending crash back in April, had it in May and was basically unable to work for a month. Then it was time for my daughter's visit, and I thought I was doing okay again. I was not. And I've only gotten worse from where I started. I probably lost my job today because I can't function like a normal ****ing human being long enough to put in a full work day. No job, no income, no insurance, no way out.

    I'm a ****ing failure. I've failed at every *******ed thing I've ever done. Now I can't work. Hell, I can' barely leave the house. And since I spent all my savings over the summer, I have no cushion to fall back on. I'm in real trouble, not even sure I want to fix it anymore. I'm not going to hurt myself, but I don't have the energy anymore to fix myself either. So **** it.
    Nik, my heart is with you. Please take care of yourself and don't be hard on yourself.

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